Thursday, January 27, 2011

Changes

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What is going on with you? Lately, you have begun to act out in ways that we are not used to. Wednesday, you threw a fit in front of half of your school as we were walking out. The entire car pool line saw you melt into a puddle of toddler on the cold sidewalk. Many moms tried to help me, as I was also carrying your brother in his car seat - some even offered suggestions (they are lucky I was holding your brother in his car seat!). Even after I finally had to carry you to the car and got you home - the fit ended up lasting almost an hour. You threw a fit at our neighbor's house a couple of weeks ago - and were so rude to them. Things that just aren't normally like you - or are they now?

Is it your brother? Are you realizing that he is here to stay? Is it that I have to split my attention between you? Are you just trying to exercise independence? I'm thinking it is a little bit of everything.

We played this morning in your room and it was lovely. Max took a nap, and rather than clean the house, or put laundry in, or do other various things, I just played with you. We played in your room for a long time - still in our pajamas at 11 AM. Because you know what? I can live with the house being a wreck. The moments spent with you cuddled in your bed pretending to be asleep are moments I'll keep forever - I won't remember if the house was clean or not.

You, my girl, are so very special to me. You are the oldest, just like I was. I turned out OK (I think), and so will you. I'm learning to share my time with both you and Max - something we'll all have to figure out as we go.

8 comments:

Jennifer said...

Love that glamour shot! She's a wild child alright! But she's still an angel. Love her and can't wait to see you guys again.

The Johnsons said...

We soooo have to chat next week - you are not alone in this!

Alison said...

I love that picture. Dealing with toddler's phases (a nice way to put it :)) is much more difficult with another child, let alone the possibility that the other child may be intensifying it. I have not figured it out!

Sara said...

Oh, YES, you turned out OK. I am VERY proud of you, Carrie. I am so glad that I had those precious moments playing with you and your sisters.
There might be bigger bank accounts or more prestigious jobs than the one I have now. But, I wouldn't trade the time I spent being a full time Mom each day during your baby and little girl years for all the money or careers.
Of course, that was the choice your dad and I made. Everyone has to make their own choices, what is best for them and their families.

Drena said...

no advice to give. just hang in there.

Sarah said...

No advice from me, either :( Just know that you are not alone in dealing with what feels like your child going through a personality change!

Emily said...

This picture says it all. She is full of attitude but so stinking cute. Good luck. This to shall pass!

m said...

She sounds a lot like Caroline. Very big girl and is always great and independent, but still little and cannot keep it together 24/7. Since she knows you love her no matter what you get the meltdowns when she just can't quite make it or has had a really rough day.